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Going again

Just came back from Cambodia 2 days ago and later on i will be flying off again to Turkey and Greece once more. Will be back on 29th to update. Till then =)

posted by Japheth @ 9:15 PM 0 comments

Last Day of Exam

As i stepped into the library, i was greeted by the stale smell that has accompanied me for the past 2 weeks or so. I would hardly need to use more than one hand to count the number of people who is studying on level 6. This quietness, this lonesomeness, seemed so scary all of a sudden.

But i felt a warmth in my heart, knowing that there are brothers and sisters and friends who remembered my last paper. Jared Wong messaged me last night wishing me all the best for my last paper. That's really sweet of him though sometimes i do doubt his intention for doing so. Probably mocking me that he is having a great time right now. Hahaha. But i would rather believe that is from his HEART. Ok... Jared, i declare you to have a heart alright? Next is a message from Chu all the way from Australia, followed by another from Jianming and another from Irene who is currently in Indonesia, her hometown. I am very touched touched touched this morning from all these messages. I didn't and wouldn't expect anyone to care less about my exams for i didn't really care that much for my exams anyway. But i do have to admit i am really stressed in juggling many work at the same time. It seems like once the exam is over, more pressure will be piled up on me in my few hours preparations for cambodia mission trip. No complains... like what Liping said, exhaust for the love of Jesus. =)
**Jared GOH... i have to add this in at 11am to thank you for your message. =)

I also want to add that i have been quite depressive lately. Not that i'm in any kind of psychological or medical condition which makes me depressive, it's just that i've been watching and reading too many depressive stuff lately. Watching Rape of Nanking, Brideshead Revisited, Little Nyonya (Don't Laugh!), Killing Fields, and book on a girl who survived the Khmer Rouge, my mind and my heart couldn't believe that the human heart is so evil and wicked to the extent of mass destruction of our own kind. I am very thankful for what i have today and i couldn't imagine the sufferings and pains these people in that time have to go through every single day of their life. I remembered when i was at Auswitzh Conc camp in Poland, it was a haunting experience to see the gas chambers with my own eyes and the personal belongings of the millions of Jews exterminated in the camp. This time round, i do not know what to expect from my visit to the Killing Fields and Torture sites of Khmer Rouge.

4 and a half more hours before the paper.

I better continue to mug.

At the very least, i don't consider studying for exams any form of suffering at all.

Before i forget...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY HUI SHI!!!
May you always stay sweet like 18 =)
Sweeter as the years go by...

posted by Japheth @ 9:32 AM 0 comments

Exams Exams Exams

Just when most people are out celebrating their end of examinations, i still have to toil for the last one this coming 5th December. My mind is beginning to be filled with so many things that i couldn't concentrate on studying for Coastal Management at all.

Sometimes i really don't know where to draw the line. I mean i am concerned and worried but somehow i felt like i am crossing the line. Yet at the same time i know that i'm being relied upon and somehow i should be there but yet i should not be there too much. Argh... adds on to my complication.

Somehow i got a feeling tomorrow i won't be in the mugging mood...

posted by Japheth @ 3:22 PM 0 comments

Steam... pssssssst....

I have lost my steam to study for my exams. I seriously couldn't muster up any concentration and effort to study for my remaining papers. I seriously think my coastal management will be in utter jeopardy. Oh no...

posted by Japheth @ 11:00 PM 0 comments