What is Love?
Many people often asked "what is love?"
And in fact, many people often got the meaning of love so wrong.
So here's a definition of love right from the Scripture. And believe me, if your love towards someone does not meet the criteria in the Scripture, it is not love at all.
1 Corinthians 13:4-7
Love is
patient,
love is
kind,
and is
not jealous;
love
does not bragand is
not arrogant,
does not act unbecomingly;
it
does not seek its own,
is
not provoked,
does not take into account wrong suffered,
does not rejoice in unrighteousness,
but
rejoices with the truth;
bears all things,
believes all things,
hopes all things,
endures all things.
the true agape love... love of the will... not love of feelings.
從空門到教堂 - 一個尼姑的故事(鄭麗津)
以前她是個出家的尼師，而今她是個信奉基督的人，為什么？
信仰基督前，我是個出家的尼師，在佛教界有二十三年。二十五年前，那是在大學念書的時期，雖然讀的是外文系，卻常跑圖書館借些哲學書籍；因為我在大學聯招填選志愿原是“輔大哲學系”，雖然分數足夠，但因女生名額有限，所以就改分發至“東吳外文系”，為了滿足這樣的心愿，只能自修哲學來補足。當時諸如外國古典名著柏拉圖、蘇格拉底、亞里斯多德、希腊神話、荷馬史詩、但丁神曲、浮士德游地獄，乃至近代存在主義哲學、尼采、叔本華等，我都相當有興趣，而且我對中國老子“清淨無為”的道家思想也有莫名的欣賞。但是心靈上還是空虛莫名。曾經地想參加學校的“基督團契”，但不得其門而入。于是在學校畢業后第二年，偶然与一群愛好寫作的朋友到花蓮旅游，來到一座佛寺，當晚就在聲聲的佛號中深受感動，淚水直流，似有歸家的感覺，于是出家的念頭油然而生，當時認定了我要尋找的人生就在這里。
二十六至四十九歲，是人一生中最寶貴的歲月，我卻在出家的日子中耗掉了。而出家生活并沒有想像中的“清淨”，反而更忙，更有做不完的事，過的也是一种不能免俗或更虛偽的生活，承受了超過体能的負荷与精神的摧殘。
二十三年出家的日子，前五年是“勞工”階段，接著离開了“剃度”的地方，在某一“佛教會”擔任秘書工作五年，隨后便有机緣在佛學院擔任教職与行政職事至今。其后的十三年還算差強人意，略能發揮所學，而且也因專職之故，才有較多的時間致力于佛法經藏的鑽研；雖然還是忙，但比起之前的勞苦，還算平順也得到人的一點尊嚴。
生活雖然諸多勞苦，但生命最大的沖擊，及至今天改變宗教信仰的導因當可追溯到一九九六年十一月，我當時正在台中慈善佛學院位職教務長，卻平白無故的被卷進一樁轟動全台佛教界的大丑聞里，至此可算是歷經了人生的惊濤駭浪，看盡了人性种种的丑惡，對人的軟弱虛偽，真是倍感痛心，更可歎的是自己也軋上一角，雖不是最重要的主角，卻可算是舉足輕重的配角，那時的心境真是惡劣到极點：想想自己一生從一個純洁的大學生，原本以為“佛門”是最清淨的樂土；打從出家至今，只能用四個字來形容自己 —— “力爭上游”； 而到如今，卻落得這樣的角色 —— 生命硬是“一塊白布染成了黑布”，我好傷痛，我怀疑自己是否還有活下去的勇气。
這种絕望的心情曾經請教過教會牧師，他教我翻看圣經羅馬書七章：十八 —— 十九節，保羅說: “我也知道在我里頭，就是我肉体之中，沒有良善。因為立志為善由得我，只是行出來由不得我。故此，我所愿意的善，我反不做；我所不愿意的惡，我倒去做。”這段話，對我而言，真是心有戚戚焉；我又明白如羅馬書七章：二十一——二十五節所說；“我覺得有個律，就是我愿意為善的時候，便有惡与我同在。因為按著我里面的意思，我是喜歡上帝的律；但我覺得肢体中另有個律，和我心中的律交戰，把我擄去了叫我附從那肢体中犯罪行為的律。我真是苦啊；誰能救我脫离這取死的身体呢？感謝上帝士靠著我們的主耶穌基督就能脫离了。這樣看來，我以內心順服上帝的律，我肉体卻順服罪的律了。”太妙了，保羅真是有智慧啊: 這段圣經的話真把我釋放出來：人全憑自己，實在不行。在佛教界，一意信靠自己努力修行，但結果卻目一次次受失敗与挫折，難怪要說: “道高一尺、魔高一丈”。卻不知這樣的爭戰要到何時方能止息。一般人都說宗教 —— “皆是勸人為善”，但是不要光說不練，如果您真是去做，才能体會個中的酸甜苦辣； 過去佛教徒也曾向我訴苦，提出种种的抱怨，后來自己也受了類似的辛苦、疲累，也同樣不知如何是好：現在在羅馬書里保羅的話是最好的答案：宗教雖是勸人為善，但只有在耶穌基督里才能得到信靠、拯救与保守。因為在圣經羅馬書八章一 —— 四節說: “如今，那些在基督耶穌里的，就不定罪了。因為賜生命圣靈的律，在基督耶穌里釋放了我，使我脫离罪和死的律了。律法既因肉体軟弱，有所不能行的，神就差遣自己的儿子成為罪身的形狀，作了贖罪祭，在肉体中定了罪案，使律法的義成就在我們這不隨從肉体，只隨從圣靈的人身上。”
接續前面的記事，我在一九九七年九月三日，第一次到美國，落腳在紐約Flushing 的佛教精舍；是在六月离開佛學院后，再度叫自己燃起希望，接受美東一位老和尚的邀請，計畫在美國興辦一所佛學院。老和尚首先聘請我當副院長，讓我為他策划佛學院的事宜，雙方几經洽談、卻一再讓我失望；“廉价勞工”四個字在我腦海中不斷盤繞，為了不愿做違背良心的事，我徹底醒了。決定离開佛教界，不想再背負這么大的重擔；而且也背不起了！對佛教界的失望，讓我對佛法再做了一次的省思；當初出家，向往的是清淨無為的解脫，以為從此努力向道，必然可以成佛成圣，可是多年的奉獻，換得的是“多做多錯，少做少錯，不做不錯”的退縮与消极。于是有人勸我還是“老實念佛”吧！“佛說阿彌陀經”有一句說: “不可以少善根福德因緣得生彼國”。所以要蒙阿彌陀佛接引，我必須整日竟夜不停地念佛，甚至最好睡覺時也持續在念。我也照著做，夢中雖有瑞象，但在現實生活中，仍然還是經歷了許多的挫敗与罪惡，我的努力与罪在交叉運行著。雖是“良心”戰胜了，可是卻得從“世界的舞台”退落下來，讓我承受极度的疲累，身心交瘁，几乎要死掉一樣，這樣的痛苦，只有圣經上的保羅明白。“悲觀的念頭”吞噬著我，讓我沒有活下去的勇气； 感覺活得越久，造的、看的罪越多，活著簡直是一無是處。
感謝上帝，十月的時候和以前大學最要好的同學聯系上，感謝她帶我上教會。第一次到新城教會听牧師講道； 牧師一再以自己為例，大談人的罪性、缺失，這樣的說辭頗讓我惊訝，和佛教法師開示所表現的“自我標榜”和帶權威口气的教示迥然不同。第二堂查經討論，第一句“因信稱義”讓我深深感動，使已經心灰意冷的我似乎又燃起生命的光和希望，又提到“圣靈感動”更覺心動不已。于是我心中開始有了對不同宗教取舍的掙扎。唯恐自己真會背叛原先的佛學信仰，還跑去一位弟兄家里斬釘截鐵地對他說: “二十三年的佛法薰習，現在要我改變信仰，去信耶穌基督，那是不可能的。”言猶在耳，就在兩、三天后，第二次上新城教會竟莫名其妙地上台分享見證，不知怎地，我對大家說: “經上說，我在眾人面前認了耶穌，耶穌也必在天父面前認了我。”約略有看過這段經文的印象，卻不記得出自何章節。奇妙的是，在我說完這句話后，才堅定了我信上帝的決心；于是心急地希望能受洗、信上帝。
今后重活的是一個新造的我、新的生命。感謝上帝，人生半百，得獲重生，有什么會比這更教人喜樂的呢？ 之前，有人勸我說：“這樣是不是太冒險了？代价付出是不是人高了？”是嗎？我也曾思考過；目前在佛教界雖然能“安居樂業”，但那是我當初所要的嗎？難道原地不動，就安全了嗎？這不是“駝鳥”的行為嗎？“追求真理”是我一生唯一的目標，這一點是我永不會動搖的堅持；“我追求真理，真理必迎向我”。而如今認識了“恩典和真理都是由耶穌基督來的。”
由于長期在佛教界，為了持有一位法師應有的庄嚴，并与信徒保持相當的距离，使得這顆心變得非常冷漠。現今面對一群很有愛心的弟兄姊妹，常覺格格不入；思想起來，不免啜泣。夜里，忍不住哭訴道: “上帝啊: 我不快樂，雖然你愛我，主內弟兄姊妹愛我，但是我卻不能愛你、愛人，不是我不愿意，實在是因為我沒有愛； 我沒有：既然沒有，我總不能欺騙你假裝說有。”一瞬間，在我眼前出現了這樣的景象：
一座干裂的枯井，從底部滲出水來，而后水滿溢出了井口；此時的我：心中頓覺滿了喜悅，輕快。我懂了；原來是上帝給我的愛滿溢出來，所以我才愛他、愛人。之前我之所以沒感覺，是因為過去二十三年來將“愛”壓抑、剝削，讓自己如久旱的干地，所以現今只知把別人的愛盡吸淨光。唯有上帝的大愛才能把愛滿溢出來。“哦！感謝主，我愛你，我也要開始能去愛更多的人。有上帝，生命真是充滿了活力。”經由紐澤西若歌教會牧師們的熱心安排，以及紐約新城教會的資助，今年一月六日我來到加州康那的基督工人神學院就讀；經過一學期的造就； 培育了屬靈的功課，增強自己對上帝的順服，藉圣經的話語，更有了信靠上帝的确据 —— 的上帝是“自有永有”、“昔在今在永在”胜過一切的神。猶記得當初剛信耶穌時，思及要去面對台灣過去的佛教信徒，心中難免有些膽怯，有如耶利米對主說的“主耶和華啊！我不知怎樣，因為我是年幼的。”但是，現在我能堅強壯膽起來，因為“靠著愛我們的主，在這一切的事上已經得胜有余了，因為我深信無論是死是生、是天使、是掌權的、是有能的、是現在的事、是將來的事、是高處的、是低處的，是別的受造之物，都不能叫我与上帝的愛隔絕，這愛是在我們的主基督耶穌里的。”（羅馬書8：37-39）。
基督教義說是：“神”開啟，創造了人類及其生命；而佛法說“三界唯心，万法唯識”，一切唯心所造，因緣和合、唯識所變現，無始無終。這兩者有著迥然不同的“人生思辯”。過去二十三年在佛學里的“心法功課”，今日，若不是上帝把我提升出來，我可能還在那個《華嚴經》的“帝网天珠”里“重重無盡”地“樂此不疲”或“安居樂業”。
這世間是無常的，充滿著苦難； 佛法的“阿含經”佛陀教導弟子們要時時觀照“苦、空、無常、無我”，弟子們做了這樣的功課，有導致厭世而自殺的例子。圣經中《傳道書》對世事的看待是
“虛空的虛空，凡事都是虛空。”，“我專心用智慧尋求查究天下所做的一切事，乃知上帝叫世人所經練的，是极重的勞苦。”是的，普世的經歷，人多半會有共同的歷練和体認，所不同的，在于你如何處理。圣經上說：“我將這一切事放在心上，詳細考究，就知道義人和智慧人，并他們的做為，都在上帝手中；或是愛，或是恨，都在他們的前面，人不能知道。”
“人活多年，就當快樂多年；然而也當想到黑暗的日子，因為這日子必多，所要來的都是虛空。”、
“所以你當從心中除掉愁煩，從肉体克去邪惡，因為一生的開端和年幼之時，都是虛空。”、
“這些事都已听見了。總意就是敬畏神，謹守它的誡命，這是人所當盡的本分。因為人所做的事，連一切隱藏的事，無論是善是惡，神都必審問。”
面對一群佛教徒，為我，他（她）們深表惋惜，甚至希望我能回心轉意；不當“師父”當他們的“老師”也行。這是不可能的事情，因為我是多么喜樂地在耶穌基督里得到真正的平安、喜樂。
“耶和華是我的牧者，我心不至缺乏，他使我躺臥在青草地上，領我在可安歇的水邊，他使我的靈魂蘇醒，為自己的名引導我走義路。我雖然行過死蔭的幽谷，也不怕遭害，因為你与我同在，你的杖、你的竿，都安慰我。在我敵人面前，你為我擺設筵席； 你用油膏了我的頭，使我的幅杯滿溢。我一生一世必有恩惠慈愛隨著我，我且耍住在耶和華的殿中，直到永遠。”（圣經詩篇23篇）
佛教的“修行”為的是“了生脫死”。用“厭离心”真能解脫而“离苦得樂”？卻只是無端地產生對生命的消极。而信靠耶穌基督，人生的道路才有真正“盼望”，因為“基督若在你們心里，身体就因罪而死，心靈卻因義而活。然而，叫耶穌從死里复活者的靈若住在你們心里，那叫耶穌基督從死里复活的，也必藉著住在你們心里的圣靈，使你們必死的身体又活過來。”（羅馬書8：10-11）
哦！贊美上帝、感謝上帝。孩子的身、心、命要全仰望在天父的保守里，是的，我并且愿意，滿心歡喜見證這美善的福音：“凡我所行的，都是為福音的緣故，為要与人同得這福音的好處。”（哥林多前書9：23）。感謝上帝，阿們！
I am no Logistic Guy
Spent the whole day planning my upcoming trip. From finding and booking the hotels via friends in taiwan to planning transport etc... one word to describe... SHAGGED. I'm so glad they invented the internet... or else i wouldn't have any clue how to get started.
But after this experience, i realised i'm certainly not a logistic guy. I am so super forgetful... mixing up Rahab the prostitute who hid the 2 spies to that that poured perfume on Jesus... i think i should be an artist instead. Haha.
TOday's sun was super fantastic... i could not resist the temptation to leave my work and go for a swim. Wooo... refreshing. Alright alright... i shall get back to work.
RB wif CX
We happened to blade pass this fitness corner this morning and CX suggested trying to do some chin ups. So after returning the blades, we made our way to the corner to try doing some chin ups. It seemed like both of us have not done any chin ups for like ages. And i really mean AGES. So we were like kinda curious how much we have disintegrated (issit the right word to use?) over the years.
CX went up first... and came down after 12 with a look of disbelief and shock on his face. It was a tough battle in his mind whether did he get weaker...or got heavier, or probably both. I think it's the last one... hahahaha
As for me... i barely could manage a 20. oh man... at least i know for certain my weight still kind remained the same... except that probably i've grown weaker. *sigh*
Gone were the days... the glorious days...
Happy
I'm so happy. I found my long-lost books today.
I recovered my Greek-NASB-Bible
my Turning Point - Church History
my 2 John MacArthur books
Soren Kierkegaard's Purity of Heart...
oh man.. marvellous marvellous marvellous
Aftermath
Aftermath of yesterday's activities:
I woke up in the morning feeling fresh and rejuvenated. When i tried to stand upon my 2 feet, i ended up collapsing back to my bed again. My legs...my legs were mildly paralysed...
After church service yesterday, I had lunch with my bro and sis before making our way back home to prepare for the badminton game later in the evening at 1800. When i reached home, i met Kenny online, and he wanted to go roller-blading then. Since it was 1530 and he's going to fetch me to West Coast Park for blading, i agreed. Therefore carrying my badminton racquets and blades along with me. It looked kinda weird for someone to carry both racquets and blades at the same time. haha. I could probably put off as playing some new extreme sport.... Blade Badminton or something. Haha.
So we went down to West Coast Park to blade. Frankly speaking, it was not the most condusive place to blade for bladers. The bicycle track was full of rough humps which was super irritating and dangerous. The pedestrian walkway was packed with people walking. This was not all. Moreover, some parts of the road (especially those at the end of the park) were really slippery and it was a challenge not to do a leg split in public. This was accompanied with the numerous landmines one could find on the road which proved to be hazardous to the road bladers (things like twigs, leaves, small pines - the killers, dead insects etc)Kenny did had a couple of unpleasant experiences blading here.
The final verdict: WCP is not a place to blade... ECP still proves better
Rushed down to Clementi Sports Hall to meet my bro and sis for badminton. It was not exactly a great day for me as my right wrist has not fully recovered from the sprain last thursday. As a result, my agility was compromised which proved to be a big loss as it was my greatest strength in badminton. *sigh* But i tried playing it tennis-style (locking my wrist) and it did proved to help. *phew*
After the game we went to have dinner at the coffeeshop near the bus interchange. There was a Pasar Malam there at that time, and there was this stall selling Smelly Tofu. Huijun wanted one, so i went down to help her buy. But when i saw how they prepare the smelly tofu, i kind of walked away.
1)The tofu they used is WRONG. They shouldn't use the white white kind tofu which has lotsa moisture inside.
2)The heat they used for frying the tofu is too weak... it won't be crispy
3)The smell is kinda wrong... not the smell an authentic Smelly Tofu should have
Obviously the stallholders were newbies in Smelly Tofu...
Couldn't escape my sharp eyes...
Oh man.. i need rest...
My stamina and strength is not as before liao
i'm getting old... =S
Dear Ms Leong
Have been trying so hard to reach my JC Maths teacher. Seems like her handphone number was no longer in use. I am just praying very hard that she will receive the email i send her cos that'll be like my only source of communication with her. Dear Ms Leong... pls pls... wherever you are... tell me how can i find you.
OUCHIE
One thing i've learnt from today's rollerblading session with Adrian is that... it's only when u dare to venture into the unknown would you have fresh insights of what you intended to seek.
Price: a painful wrist
Gain: a new skill
Bleeding Account
Yes yes yes... money is hard to earn. I had my taste of that. And guess what? I spent a bomb on my new pair of rollerblades. Yippee!! Come to think of it... there's a Malacca and Taiwan trip coming up... sheesh... i better do something about the great deficit...
Vesak Day
Went out shopping with Adrian and Kenny at Orchard today. Apparently Adrian ... as usual... was the top spender today. Conquering a 90 bucks Rip Curl boardshorts was too little to fill his insatiable appetite... he went on with a OP brown shirt and a pair of rollerblades (at nite). Goodness... Kenny and I went home empty handed. Hahaha. And someone still have the audacity to say "i got no money!". Wouldn't it be weird for someone to have 'no money' to want to eat Haagen Dahz? Hmm...
Watched Mission Impossible 3. Frankly speaking, i'm not exactly into action flicks. However, i kinda like the show as an action flick. i mean... if i watch it to get some edification... then it failed completely. If i watch it to work my brain... then it failed to a certain extent. But if i watch it for hunky actors, super-chio and cool actresses (Maggie Q), spectacular stunts, wicked sense of humour, try-to-hard twist in the plot... then i guess it makes a good show. Haha.
I couldn't believe. I walked Suntec, Marina Sq and Orchard... i could not find a single place selling Saloman Rollerblades. They seemed to have vanquished from the surface of this earth. Goodness. I guess i could only hope that they do have a booth at least... in east coast park. And that's right guys... blading tmr again. Hee hee.
Pace of Life Picking Up
Received 2 important letters today.
One is the NUS Freshman Guide (i still haven't decide on which orientation camp to take part in)
The other is my MOE Teaching Scholarship Confirmation (sigh... i have sold my soul to the gahmen)
As Uni life looms in nearer and nearer, i kinda hope it does not come so soon. All the hectic hustle and bustle of study-life might not be something my dormant-for-2-years brain can handle.
Alright... i shall just take one step at a time.
Browse for a nice board shorts tmr... Scout for a nice sturdy high-quality pair of rollerblades =)
John 3:16
Γιατί ο Θεός αγάπησε με μια τέτοια αγάπη τον κόσμο, ώστε πρόσφερε το Γιο του το Mονογενή, για να μη χαθεί ο καθένας που πιστεύει σ αυτόν αλλά να έχει ζωή αιώνια.
Thanks Lee Choon
i was so touched... *sniff*
I never knew i was such a great KTV khaki as lee choon put it.
1)I intro her to new songs
2)She can sing her fill
3)i sing well
*sniff*
Hectic Tuesday
MorningHad my Basic Theory Test at BBDC this morning. I was really nervous and afraid that i will fail the test. Ironic isn't it? I mean i did leave this matter entirely in God's hand and yet i was still worrying over it. Sigh... But i did pass the test. Haha... so happy. The next step: Conversion of my taiwan license!
AfternoonIs it so weird to return the trays after finishing a meal at the fast food outlet? Why are people giving me weird stares for doing so? Couldn't they see the crows and mynahs were feasting on the unattended trays people left behind on the table? So much for good social culture...and pls spare the crap on creating job opportunities.
Started on my job this afternoon invigilating the exam for Uni of London. Didn't know it will be so tiring. Just like how Ah Dong described it "only walk here walk there loh." but seriously speaking, the walk here walk there was shag loh. my legs were pretty sore from today's ordeal.
EveningOk... couldn't find my way to United Square. Haha.
Cecilia's first lesson on Ruth was interesting. However, she was a bit too dramatic over the romance part of this book... lotsa spices were added to it. It was enriching nevertheless.
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i hate Tuesday
Test in the morning
Work in the afternoon
Class at night..
I'm looking forward to Wednesday already...
East Coast
Before i start my blogging, just wanna say...
YEAH!!! Congrats to Mr Low Thia Khiang and Mr Chiam See Tong in securing their Hougang and Potong Pasir once again. I wonder if the government will clamp down this site bcos i cheered for them... hmmm... haha.
But too bad no one come to contest in Bukit Panjang- Holland. so sad... or else my vote sure go to the opposition one. But must be either SDA or WP lah... haha
Anyway... Kenny Tan (not Yu), Adrian, Elton and i went down to east coast park to blade today. A torrential downpour (morning squalls) occurred in the early morning but it did not dampen our spirits. hee hee.
5 hours of non-stop blading... and now suffering for it... bruised butt... aching legs. It was rather enriching cos got to learn new skills from Elton who happened to be quite pro in blading. And it was in learning that new skill which got me landed on the ground with my butt. How could it be possible that i lose my balance while blading? So unthought of... hahahaha. Never mind... i shall be humble. But the 'funniest blader' award goes to Kenny Tan. He super farnie loh... one word to describe... like penguin. Haha... It was fun nevertheless...
I think the highlight for me was while the 4 of us were blading, Elton commented on this guy in front of us (who was learning to blade) looked like he was proposing to this girl standing in front of him. (in actual fact the girl was helping him to get up to his feet) Suddenly i felt that his back looked familiar..and lo and behold it's Yiqiang and Gayle... haha... what coincidence.
Alright alright... i really gotta turn in now. I could hear the thunder roaring... and the air's getting cooler. Still have church service tmr. tata
The 4 of us at the jetty
GaHmEn
Oh goodness. When have I become so defiant of the gahmen?
Everytime i see the opposition on tv i will watch and listen attentively
but if it's PAP hogging the channel... u'll see me flipping to another channel immediatelly...
So sick of white already...
i don't like politics... so dirty-handed
i don't like economics... so cruel (dog-eat-dog world)
sigh...
but i have to face them next time even if i do not like them...
Hi Tanja
i was so glad to see Tanja again. Went out to meet Gabriel and her for lunch.
Enjoying our fried dumplings at selegie
Me and Tanja with her durian ice-cream
Dear Tanja, i'll make it a point to go Finland to visit you someday. =)
And of cos... i couldn't help but swoon over Gabriel's newborn son Isaiah. He is just so cute!!!
"I want to drink!"
ECP
Went down to ECP with Huijun, Jinkuang, Liangsong, Moses, Rosie, Yibin and Qiming today. A pity it kind of started to rain and we had to hide in Gelare to have some waffles...adding on to our calories. hee hee. But a big THANKEW to Jinkuang who treated us to the waffles.
A bunch of us...namely Roses, Mosie, Huijun, Yibin and I decided to go blading in the evening. Among us, only Moses and i had blading experience. Oh gosh. It was still drizzling and the shopboy was like discouraging us to go blading as the floor was pretty wet and slippery... especially for people who have not skated in their lives. Well... apparently Huijun being the brave one... pushed on with the plan...
Just 2 shots of Huijun falling down... pulling others along...
Haha... as my cam was running out of batt... couldn't take more candy shots
=P
Wat's the commotion over there???
Oh... Our star for the night...Hahaha...
We had dinner and tea at Tien Jie's condo later that night. Her house was so NICE and HUGE. oh gosh... marvellous place. And she had this piano (it has a name but i forgot what it is...it's not exactly a piano) which was so exotic... cool
This musical instrument costs S$60 000 ++
enuff to buy a car...goodness
